Front Porch Step – I Never Loved Before I Found You


Album

I Never Loved Before I Found You

Label

Ha. Yeah, right.

Year

2017

Genre

For Fans Of

Into It. Over It, Dashboard Confessional.

Summary

This is going to be a fucking doozy.

Rating

30 / 100

At what point do you separate the art from the artist? It can be a tough question and one that I battle with myself.

For instance, I love the works of H.P. Lovecraft but it always bothers me that he was a colossal racist and saw people of different colour and lower economic status as subservient beings; almost non-human. Which is odd and weirdly ironic when you consider that his literary works are often about us puny mortals discovering that we’re merely insignificant creatures to his Eldritch gods that exist beyond the plains of our own reality. Beings who have existed for aeons and whom will continue to live on after we and our Earth die and wither away. I have similar thoughts about another personal favourite work of mine, American Psycho, both Brett Easton-Ellis’s highly controversial book and Mary Harron’s terrific 2000 film adaption – both of which I love greatly. Despite American Psycho being a mixture of violently absurd horror and dark, bizarre black comedy, and while also being wildly open to interpretation, I cannot go past the extremely dark content that it deals with nor the misogynistic undertones that anti-hero/protagonist Patrick Bateman exhibits. I also struggle to watch a Roman Polanski movie because I can’t wipe from my head the knowledge of him drugging and raping a 13-year-old girl in 1977 and fleeing the US to avoid criminal charges, the piece of shit.

But okay, look, I’m getting ahead of myself here. That’s books and films; we’re here to talk about music.

I know many people that can disassociate from a musician’s actions, personality and beliefs and can just enjoy the music in question. I have friends who enjoy the music of many old-school Norwegian black metal artists, yet who deplore the actions of certain individuals from that scene, such as Burzum AKA utter nutcase, Varg Vikernes. I myself used to love Lostprophets right up until, well… you know, and now listening to that band’s music makes me feel ill. However, while nowhere near as extreme as Ian Watkins or Jim Hesketh, and while just sitting slightly above that Steve Klein case, we have Jake McElfresh, more commonly known as the American acoustic, singer-songwriter Front Porch Step.

In late 2014, McElfresh, 23 then, was accused of sexual misconduct by former partners of his; young girls – some of who were under 18 at the time too – that he had romantic relationships and these were connections that were cultivated due to them being fans of his music. These allegations brought to light his mental, emotional and even physical manipulative nature towards these young women via online avenues, phone calls, texts, and in some cases, in-person contact. More and more allegations and community pressure mounted against the musician, mainly from Tumblr and across the social media sphere (yes, I know, not quite the most concrete of sources), then media outlets everywhere and other bands in the scene pounced on the issue, shit hit the fan for him even more so, and a plethora of discussions occurred about the blurred line between artists and their fans.

This came at a time in this decade where we were seeing Ian Watkins being jailed for the planned rape of an infant child, As I Lay Dying’s Tim Lambesis imprisoned for trying to have his own wife whacked, and Neck Deep’s Lloyd Roberts and Set It Off bassist Austin Kerr leaving their respective bands to battle sexual misconduct and harassment allegations from fans – the former of whom was actually acquitted. As for McElfresh, this controversy saw the Front Porch Step name removed from the Pure Noise Records roster, his 2015 Warped Tour appearances being shit canned bar oneStray From The Path writing ‘D.I.E.P.I.G.’ about him in particular, Senses Fail’s Buddy Nielsen saying that his “music privilege” should be revoked, and so, so much more. Now, keep in mind, McElfresh was never fully convicted by a court over these allegations (though a full court proceeding should have happened.) It’s also worth noting that he took to court a former girlfriend, Autumn Lavis, who spoke out about his sexual misconduct with these other young women, where his charges of defamation and slander against Lavis were eventually and thankfully dropped. McElfresh also made statement after statement vaguely addressing how he’d soon fully address these serious allegations, which all eventually arrived with this long status update in April 2015. [A great, far more comprehensive timeline and archive of this whole saga can be found here.]

Following that lengthy statement, I thought that would be the last time the music world would ever see the likes of Front Porch Step Away From The Young Girls.

But no.

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Front Porch Step, 2015.

After more or less two years away from the public’s eye, and perhaps even hoping that he’s been forgotten and that people don’t care anymore (he actually disputes this claim in ‘Stones‘, where he also takes aim at his many detractors), Front Porch Step’s second album dropped last week on Friday, March 31st. Titled ‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’, this is his first release since 2014’s decent ‘Whole Again’ EP, and by listening to each new track as they were released drip-fed style, I was more than ready to tackle this record from the get-go.

So first off, disregarding full context here for a second and while I don’t fully hate this release, this album just isn’t that good. But at the very, very least, it’s a far more in-depth telling of his vast personal misconduct and rocky musical journey than that rather weak and vague 2016 single, ‘Help Me Hurt’.

Secondly and perhaps most obviously, ‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’ is thematically and lyrically about the past two and a bit years of McElfresh’s life; from the widespread vitriolic crucifixion that he received from the media, his peers, fans and punters alike to the deep self-hatred that he rightfully inflicted upon himself. This album is essentially an apology letter – or at least, his attempt at an apology letter – put to tape, with lyrics such as “I know that I’ve made mistakes/and I’m aware I’ve told some lies/I’m sorry that I broke your heart/You’ll be glad to know that I broke mine” from the song, ‘Stones‘. But in this particular example, he then somewhat contradicts and undermines himself in the very same song with lyrics of “So you can go burn all my records/and put me six feet in the ground/There’s still a flame that burns forever in my heart/Your hatred just cannot put out“.

*Sigh*.

Again, this record is McElfresh trying (and that’s the key word there) to make amends – at times, half-assedly so – with not just himself, but also the music community and asking that we all give this mid-twentysomething bloke from Ohio a second chance. Some will and have indulged him in that second chance, others not at all. But I mean, what else was he going to do here? Write a record about how he’d do it – “it” meaning starting toxic relationships with his young, teenage female fans – all over again? Fuck no! That would be career suicide, even more so than what he’s already committed. He also couldn’t just sweep this all under the rug by discussing other topics because going radio silent never turns out well in these instances.

However, if we are to take this new ten-track release at its sole face value, it does seem like he’s gotten some help. Whether that be from actual therapy sessions, some long and deep personal reflection, through him reevaluating and rekindling his relationship Christ and bringing God even further into his personal life, or maybe all the above. Now, the latter there – his faith – gets highly detailed on this record, namely in the acoustic finale ‘Worship From A Wretch‘ (“Jesus, help me worship you because you are/Teach me discipline and let it steer my heart) as well as the actually decent mid-album reverie ‘Quick To Run’ (“I heard your words when I was just a boy/so there’s no excuse for the path that I chose/So when I’m on my knees/out in front of your gates/then I won’t make excuses when that gate is closed.). But while McElfresh may very well be a “Christian man” now – a topic this album will bring up at nearly every step of away – saying that you’ve found God or ushered the Lord into your life in order to attain pity, forgiveness and/or absolution from critics is the equivalent of a criminal pleading insanity to weasel their way out.

Oh, and “defiantly” stating that “If they only knew/about the things that I’ve gone through/They wouldn’t wish I’d burn in hell” in the title track – among many other such haphazard woe-is-me lines – doesn’t really make you sound more apologetic nor will it soften people’s already incredibly harsh opinions of you, Jake.

Just some advice there, mate.

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Front Porch Step, 2017. God, that’s one dark fucking promo photo.

Anyway, stylistically, this record is not a far cry from his previous releases. This sophomore record (people say that’s a cringy term but fuck it, I like it) is just more of his mid-tempo acoustic, laid-back country/folk tunes all with easily digestible indie-rock moments sprinkled throughout. For acoustic guitars are always present in these ten songs, along with soft, almost bluesy electric guitar riffs along with bright reverberant slides and licks, basic bass lines featuring root notes galore, and simplistic yet lively drumming all acting as the musical crux for his open-diary lyrics and rather gruff yet emotionally-tinged voice. You know, just the very things that helped him garner solid popularity in the first place.

Musically speaking, though, this is a very expected record for Front Porch Step too. As in there’s nothing that new here in terms of his regular instrumentation and approach, save for the delicate organ parts on the emotionally conflicted ‘Perfect Man‘ (whose choruses just awkwardly stumbles into view), the mournful strings on ‘Quick To Run’ and the dynamic ‘Rewind’, and those short violin parts on the slow and hazy ‘Wrong Roads’. Over than that, it’s pretty much business as usual instrumentally and tonally for this Ohio musician/potentially registered sex offender.

Production and mixing wise, this is a very “real” record – again in keeping with his sound – and it suitably lacks overdone ‘studio shine’ in order to make the songs feel more natural and honest, and you know what? I’ll give the dude that; he nailed the necessary aesthetic for his sound here. (That snare delay on ‘Quick To Run’ is a real nice touch too.) I do also enjoy the album’s use of dynamics to make these songs flow really well – lyrical content and wider context aside – but man oh man, that’s all just not enough to save this record.

I suppose if there is a standout song that I could point at here (and even then, a song that I wouldn’t listen to it leisurely outside of this incredibly long review), it would have to be the second-to-last track, ‘So Help Me God‘. This driving, upbeat folky track – which also features the album’s best chorus melody too – seems like a real plead for help from McElfresh to be saved and the lyrics show him pondering his fate due to his previous discrepancies, to put that all very lightly. I really quite enjoyed this song… but then I suddenly remembered that this song is actually five years old now and the lyrics in this new version haven’t been altered; the only change is that now full band instrumentation backs up this once solely acoustic track. I get that the whole ‘I’m a monster who needs saving’ delivery worked back in 2012 to help his music reach into the hearts of many and that it most certainly has heavy context now, but goddamnit, the phoned-in nature of its inclusion here undercuts the song itself and also the record.

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Front Porch Step, 2017.

For all of the politics and the incredibly messy predicaments McElfresh found and still finds himself in, and while I may cop flak for this, I do think that this is a very brave record… even though I think he would have been better served just staying dormant from the music scene. It’s brave in the sense that he actually wrote, recorded it and is now releasing it DIY because the collective shitstorms of yesteryear will and have been summoned up again with this new release.

It’s glad to see that the Internet never really forgets.

Now, whether or not McElfresh is actually remorseful about his actions and whether or not this record comes from a truly genuine place is difficult for me to say. I mean, it feels like he is sorry and that this is indeed coming from an honest place, but as I said before, what other option would he have right now but an attempt at public repentance? To (regretfully) play devil’s advocate for a quick second, this is a guy’s music and lyrics have always been very honest and open so why would he stop now – for the sake of us pitying and forgiving him? Maybe, but that was also before the mere mention of his name created vile, skin crawling feelings. Maybe if he was donating funds made off of this album to charities or if he was offering to educate newer, younger bands about how not to go about handling their popularity and how they shouldn’t interact with fans and using himself as the example, this release would be another story. But whatever the real integrity of this record is and whatever I or other people come to think of it, that’s apparently never going to stop McElfresh from releasing music –  whether via Front Porch Step or another project – as a recent Tweet from him states:

Oh.

Oh, dear.

Bullet, please meet the foot.

Despite how he’s conducted himself with this new record, there are still many fans that defend and praise McElfresh for his music and for his courageous continuation; with some imploring him to “ignore the bullshit”. The album’s current iTunes reviews really show the polar opposite opinions this record has and will continue to generate. There’s this one-star review by user poppunklegs, saying, “pedophiles [sic] shouldn’t get recognition” and this now removed comment, “You used the music you made to get to underaged girls. You should not be allowed to release music ever again in your life. All your hard work as a musician should be trashed forever” by user woeisdead echoing the sentiments of many. On the flip side, there’s this far more positive review saying “Glad your back! This album got me in my feels already” from user etnick949, exclusively honing in on the music like many other Front Porch Step are doing with his return. And yes, this guy still has plenty of fans left, as the recently turned on YouTube comment sections on his videos now show. (Comments are still disabled for his songs under the Pure Noise Records YouTube account, mind you – they ain’t having any of that mess.)

As for my original question, with ‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’ I tried to separate the art from the artist for this review, but simply couldn’t. For this piece of art is so deeply embedded within the despicable actions and the resulting mindset and situation the artist is now currently in, so much so that separating these two entities just didn’t work. Yes, McElfresh quite obviously fucked up BIG TIME, and make no mistake, he will be hounded about his past actions for the rest of his career – however long that continues to be. Do I think that when someone makes a mistake – no matter how small or large – that they should be crucified for the rest of their life? Honestly, no, not really, as things aren’t always so black and white. But I’m very conflicted here as while I do believe in rehabilitation and in bridge re-building, but Jesus H. Christ does this subpar record leave an awful taste in my mouth morally. I also can’t imagine what the young women he was involved with are feeling and going through right now.

As I said earlier, this record is all about second chances. Vans Warped Tour’s Kevin Lyman once said of Front Porch Step in 2015 that “Half of these people in this parking lot, if they didn’t get a second chance in life, they wouldn’t be here on tour.” And I respect that sentiment, I really do, but McElfresh’s prior actions, of which I don’t condone, sour his musical output greatly. If any other artist released ‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’, I think we’d be looking at a much higher score here – at least 60-70/100 at the most – but no other artist did release this record. No, Front Porch Step did, and that name, that context, and that face behind the music is what weights this record down.

I mean, besides, when you break it all the way down, nothing of any real value was lost here as this record is really by the numbers for this genre and isn’t that good nor that memorable overall.

Conclusion

Some reading this will wonder why I’ve given Front Porch Step publicity by talking about his new mediocre as fuck record. Well, first off, I covered the new Falling In Reverse album last week and would like to remain nothing if not consistent. (Plus, that band has a frontman who didn’t get romantically involved with his underage fans.) Secondly, as I mentioned above, I do try and separate the art from the artist, unsuccessfully here I admit, as this isn’t a Tumblr blog but a music media outlet. As such, we talk about music – no matter how bloody good, merely average or fucking bad it is – regardless of the artists real life actions. Of course, if you didn’t listen to a musician or a band because of their dodgy business decisions, creepy shit they’ve done and the skeletons that most certainly exist in their closet, you’re iTunes and Spotify playlists would be very fucking small.

However, even so, McElfresh’s actions are a great black stain upon ‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’. And sadly, very little has changed from the 20th-century iteration of the music industry, with the statutory rape cases from older artists such as David Bowie to Chuck Berry’s underage girl controversy remain a symptom of the music industry’s wider issues and how it deals with its artists and the women within it. For once again, a popular musician abused their position of power to do something that they knew they shouldn’t be doing – even if those girls consensually engaged with him at first, that still doesn’t make his actions or how he treated them right nor does it make me at all empathetic towards him.

Ultimately, Front Porch Step’s new album is a 3 out of 10 acoustic/indie record that you could get from a dozen other better artists without all of the bullshit and controversial baggage, all from a 0 out of 10 individual.

Tracklisting

1. Burned

2. Perfect Man

3. Stones

4. Quick To Run

5. Truth

6. I Never Loved Before I Found You

7. Wrong Roads

8. Rewind

9. So Help Me God

10. Worship From A Wretch

‘I Never Loved Before I Found You’ is out now. 

Sorry for all of the hyperlinks here; the wider context and sources were all very necessary I felt. Now, I wonder if Anonymous will get involved with this guy releasing music again. Oh well, in any case, fuck this guy. 

4 Responses to “Front Porch Step – I Never Loved Before I Found You”

  1. Ryun Appleyard Ryun Appleyard

    This is spot on. Another point in this kind of situation that’s always been hard personally is finding out that music you love or lyrics that inspire you or are relatable have come from someone who pulls this shit. It’s depressing thinking you’ve connected with someone like this. (Just wanted to vent, sorry). Also, “Front porch step away from the girls” absolute savage, good job.

    • Alex Sievers Alex Sievers

      Vent away! I wasn’t a big fan of FPS prior to all of that shit going down back in 2014/2015, but I sure as hell won’t be now with how this new record’s turned out quality wise and by the way that he’s handled things now. Some people can easily keep listening to an artist despite their various transgressions, and I’m not ~really~ one of those people, try as I might to be. Well, at least not when it comes to this guy’s music.

      Oh cheers, but I must admit that “Front Porch Step Away From The Young Girls” was a caption of a meme during this whole messy saga back in the day. Still just as savage, though, and I just couldn’t resist including it here in this review.

      Thank you for reading, mate!

  2. Owen Morawitz Owen Morawitz

    I can honestly say that I was completely ignorant of this dude’s music and the controversy sounding him before this reading this review, and after listening to that clip, I understand why. Very lukewarm, uninspired ‘guy has a beard and tries to sing soulfully’ shit. Do, not, want. If we’re separating art from the artist, then its objectively boring music; and if we’re not, then he’s evidently just a shit dude making boring music. No real surprises there either.

    Also, on the Lovecraft note Alex, I have a Cthulhu tattoo and enjoy At The Mountains of Madness very, very much, despite his overt racism and mostly shitty worldview. So you’re not alone in that struggle. If it’s good enough for a Ride The Lightning track, then it’s ok by me.

    • Alex Sievers Alex Sievers

      Yeah, his sound and his look really fits a certain image and I think that’s what worked well for him early on, prior to him utterly cooking it. Was never a big fan of him myself, and that controversy only added to my indifference.

      Oh shit, that’s my favourite Lovecraft work honestly. Dude, if I’d known about that tat, I’d have asked to see it when we caught up in Melbourne a couple months back, haha.

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